thank God for rain to shower the dry-parched ground.
thank God for new session members - Aunty Alicia & Teacher Peng Hui.
thank God for current session members for their leadership.
thank God for Dr Sng who had served for many years in church session.
thank God for finanical support in church.
thank God for people who inititate to do the Lord's work.
thank God for God-fearing, God-directed people.
thank God that Kenneth will hopefully be intern-pastor end of 2005.
thank God for little kids that are full of life (although i wanted to skin them alive just now)
thank God for Pei Yong all the time.
thank God for Jermaine's hugs.
thank God for Louisa's "Hi".
thank God for Ai-Leen's gift of music.
thank God for him at all.
thank God for pizza breakfast and meaty lunch.
thank God for Peel-Fresh Orange Juice Drink.
thank God for Roller-Coaster BBQ flavoured.
thank God for this TOSHIBA laptop.
thank God for internet broadband.
thank God for fingers to type.
thank God for eyes to see.
thank God for ears to listen to the TV.
thank God for water in the fish tank without fish.
my list is so long that i just thank God for life!

i'm trying to make it a point to appreciate things of life that the Lord has put in my life and yep, to thank Him.

1) thank God that I'm seeing the light for my project. next week is my presentation.
2) thank God that He has helped me to understand many things about project that I won't have understood
3) thank God for a wonderful lecturer-in-charge
4) thank God for supportive friends and family members to cheer me on when the tough gets going.
5) thank God for life!

random:
examine your spirit and heart.
look at yourselves through the eyes of God.
it's the heart, not the mind.
everyone goes through different paths.

Heard of Amos Quito? Here's something about him.

A: Knock knock!
B: Who's that?
A: Amos
B: Amos what?
A: A mos-quito is looking for you!

ahahahaha! This is a joke by Gerald. Recently my house is "infested" with lots of mosquitoes and my mum has been burning incense coils to get rid of them. I think maybe mosquitoes burn alot of fats during hot weather.. so need more fatty blood... Hee.

Rain please?! The grass is brown everywhere, it's such a pity sight.

Appreciation is vital!

Thanks to all for taking time to appreciate me and to actually tell me that you do.

I failed my NAPFA because I failed the 2.4km run/walk. I took abt 18 minutes to complete. But I am really thankful that I was confident in taking all the 6 tests and I didn't panic or feel weird. I'm glad that the Lord was with me. I did not feel faint or anything although I fell down during the run. I am happy because my best item for the test is shuttle run. Oh, haha, I actually met my two-year secondary school crush during NAPFA. He is studying Diploma in Sports & Wellness in NYP and he came to conduct NAPFA with his schoolmates. Maybe that explains why my best item was shuttle run because he was conducting it. Hee. The fact is he approached me to chat. Ha, oh, I suspected he liked me in secondary school but I never did find out the truth. Anyway, it's over.

Sorry for such a stupid entry.

I cried in church today. Those who knew about it would probably be shocked about it. Only Juli knows the reason why. I wept because I was feeling burdened. There was a rising issue that could not be denied. It concerns many many people.

There are many many things on my mind. I have so many many things to do. So many concerns. So many datelines to meet. So little time. I want to take a slower pace, perhaps pause and take time to think, but there's just not enough time.

If you are asking me, I am pressed for time for my final year project. Two weeks to final submission and presentation but we have not complete the actual work.

If you are asking me, on top of the project, I have to study for my mid-sems. Tomorrow is the test and I have not started studying. I AM SUCH A LOSER!

Barely 4 weeks to final exams. I can't wait to finish.

I am leaning on the Lord's strength. For the joy of the Lord is my strength. I must learn to be joyful.

Disclaimer: I am not complaining. I just need to vent it, because I AM SOOOOOOOOOO STRESSED!

feeling weary & dreary.

i know i'm reading into things. but i thank you for making my day.

Sometimes, our lives are so packed, our schedules are so busy, our minds are full of things to do, that we forget to stop, think, then go (remember junior camp? tuesday sessions i think.). We ought to take a slower pace when we can, to appreciate the things in life, such as the people, the hdb flats, the trees & bushes, the cars, the sunny days, the monsoon seasons (singapore do have seasons! hee!) and etc.

Take time to appreciate & thank God for all these.

In case, you are craving for the sketch poems last saturday.

Michelle aka Ah Lian:
Before this bridge i come,
This hopeful orange i dump,
For 22 years i pleaded sore,
To ask of fate nothing more,
But answer this prayer i give,
And let me my true love receive.

Kam aka Ah Beng:
Could this be,
The soul mate for me?
To trip and fall
beside this wall
For 40 years
I've been in tears
No glimpse of hope,
I barely could cope.
Until this day,
Fate has shown me the way!
That I may find,
A peace of mind.

B: fate has shown me the way
L: is that why you called this day?
B: Your poem has melted my heart
L: indeed, it has served it's part
B: may you honour me with your presence at petronas towers,that i may present you with a bouquet of flowers?
L: O, that's so sweet!Indeed, we shall definitely meet.

If you were wondering who i learnt my orleng language from, it's my mum.
I definitely know how to pronouce orange, and I can differentiate a big "orleng" and a pumpkin. Hee..
I'm glad, it was my maiden sketch publicly, and I did well. Ha, doing sketch can be quite addictive.

It's playing in my mind... *help*

I've treaded on the wrong ground, and it's making me upset.
I am as real as I am, I don't put on a fake front. I think you do, you can't always be sooo bubbling with joy. I don't have good social skills like you...

I don't know what I should do. I don't need you actually, just don't know why I am so persistent. Does everyone end up this way? Or is it just me because I am of the least?

I think I'm just going through a emotional crisis. I think I'll be ok, soon.

Lord, Lord, show me the way.

I don't need a promise. I just need an assurance.
But there might never come such a day.
Who am I to ask, you see?

I'm not a person who puts up a front, pretending to be someone I'm not, doing something I'm not capable of. I don't like to snatch everything to do. I'll rather sit there and watch. I'm a person of feelings and emotions and are true to them. Yes, I felt confused and a little hurt. That's why I kept quiet. You came by and made me feel better, though you didn't say anything. I put high hopes and was imagining things that were not there. Though there was miscommunications, I can't blame you actually. It is here now, and this is what I've chosen. I am responsible for my own emotions and feelings.

This has become a driving force for me. I know it's wrong. But it's good too, at least for me.

Don't try to guess or ask me! I will ask you or tell you about it when I feel confused enough.

I hate myself when I can feel "hate" with someone who I appreciate alot just because of stupid reasons. I am just not making sense. It's not worth it all... Get back to reality.

I wish I'm less confused.

I had a fever yesterday. Due to the weather perhaps. Popped in 4 paracetomol pills over the night and this morning, I'm fine already. This is good because I won't want to miss out on all the good stuff during CNY.

um anyway, you, it's nothing ok. don't think too much into it. you dont want to get hurt, do you?

When I am sure, I'll just stay a distance...